"sigh"
with every passing moment as i have gone throughout my life; alone and unappreciated, their has been one who has came into my life and turned it upside down. Since i have came to know Moyruh; many did not appreciate her either and she was depressed frequently, despite my flaws i have done my best to make her life the best that she can have. Moyruh now is all i live for and the one that i love and hold most dear in my life, i am grateful that she has accepted me for who I am and loves me as much as I love her. Lately I've been stressed because of certain events with work and I am looking to finding another job shortly. If I have to work two or three jobs to support Moyruh I will so I can take her out of this hellhole and put her into a place that she will enjoy coming to each day, It pains me to see her frustrated each and everytime I come home for work and it makes me work harder each day to find a job so she doesn't have to go through this day after day. And I know I frustrate her more because of the fact that sometimes I am pushy or rough in bed (not that kind), but I don't realize that I am doing that in my sleep; and I feel bad because I don't realize it until she mentions it to me and gets mad at me. "sigh" I wish I knew how to stop how I behave when I am asleep.